ChapterZero

Is there something wrong with me?

Just now, I agreed to go to Six Flags with a friend from high school, even though I don’t really want to: I’m just going because that might be the last chance I have to go anywhere with him. And that same general feeling of being deprived of the last four years is pervading my life right now; if you had asked me when I was a junior how I would feel the summer after graduation, I would probably have said elated. But then again, I was planning on attending CalTech or Harvey Mudd, not the University of Houston. Instead, I feel like all the friends I made are moving onward and upward and I’m coasting along on the same monotonous tone.

Maybe this will be a beneficial experience though, I definitely don’t see myself immersing myself in schoolwork. I did entirely too much of that in high school and yet it got me nowhere: I was valedictorian, but as a person, I lacked a lot of things you should get from the high school experience. In the upcoming year, I plan to rectify that situation and work on those skills that I need to get where I want to be.

But still. I’m going to miss all of my friends: J, Diahna, Shannon, Pasha, Melodie, Erica, and Jose C. My loss is underscored by the fact that I didn’t realize what wonderful people some of them were until they were gone. I wish them the best in life with all my heart.

Possibly relevant posts:

• Life Plans (5/29/2004)
• Time Management (1/3/2006)
• Ethernet! (8/24/2001)